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This is my Person Blog. Here I write the history I've had or the relationship I have with the people around me. I don't blog about random stuff and/or my rants here anymore. If you do want to know, feel free. That is, if you can. :) Click(s)He Is Love
Sunday, September 18, 2011 | 12:08 PM | 0 comments
A lot has happened already since I last updated. So.. where do I start?
Well, naging kami ni Michael. Halos 9 months din un. I tried to gain his attention by telling him that I wanted to break up with him and so, aun. He allowed me. We had confrontations and unfortunately, his reason was that he didn't feel the same way he did before. I heard about it somewhere that he liked his Brain Train classmate. It didn't last long though, even if it did, it would be hard since she's from Bulacan and he's from Calamba. Then, I found out that he liked (again) the girl he liked before we started dating. You imagined how painful it was for me, right? :)) oh well, past is past. Now, moving on to my updates -- Someone reached out his had for me when I was in my darkest days. He was like, I don't know, my own Knight-in-Shining-Armor-Prince-Charming guy? He was there for me when I needed someone. He made me feel loved and cared for and it was absolutely amazing. He was everything I needed, everything I wanted. You know how it turned out right? Naging MU kami. But things started to get difficult. With the way he was being too close to girls made me jealous, insecure. Oo, selosa po ako. :)) He thought that I didn't believe in the things he said, na mahal niya ko. I did, every single word he said pinaniwalaan at tinatandaan ko. Pero, mahirap eh. Lalo na pag may mata ka, kapag may nakikita ka. Then I tried keeping it myself kasi I didn't want to bother him. Ayokong masaktan din siya, ayokong magkaproblema kami. Unfortunately, he noticed. Then things got complicated. I was the first to announce that we should stop whatever relationship we had. But then again, I wanted to confirm his side, so I talked to him. When we finally got a grasp of each others side, he told me it was best to let go. I couldn't, I won't let it even if he wanted to. He told me that he just played with me, that he didn't love me at all just to make me let go. I stuck myself to him like glue. That was the only time that his words didn't mean anything to me. Pinaniwalaan ko lang ung mga salitang sinabi niya sakin dati na pde kong asahan.
As of today, I think I'm starting to annoy and stress the hell out of him. Ayokong isuko ung taong alam kong hindi ko kakayaning mawala sakin. Ayokong isuko ung taong binigyan at pinagkatiwalaan ko ng malaking bahagi ng buhay ko. I've made that mistake of walking out and pushing people away, I don't want that to happen again. I'm sorry kung nakukulitan ka na, pero I have to do this para di ka mawala.. Please, Ranie. Please don't forget what we've been through, don't forget about US. You're the first guy I ever disregarded my pride for, the first guy who made me feel free, the first one who made me believe in myself and the things that I can do. Please, don't let me go.. Everybody deserves a second chance, right? Kung tayo, edi tayo. We had a second chance to make things better. Kung hindi tayo, edi hindi, at least we had a second chance to end things right. Please.. Please? I love you.
He is Love, and he is all I need. ♥
